ho ho ho and all the reindeers' men

Pick one petal or two it doesn't bother me......not that you cared anyway, but just know it doesn't bother me
Give me your love, your love.
squelsh the reprocutions and make sure that you can do everything within your power to unleash this gizmo. or do dad.
So I said alright whatever you say, fyi, which what he said mattered very little if you must know, ,which you must know or you would be doing something else. yeah......bblbblllllaaaaahhhhhhhhh bbboboooooyyyyyyyy

custard flavored kisses

hello....yes to you IT says hello.
respond yes?
no.
ok.
does a response matter?
if you didn't respond to IT,
would IT matter?
Maybe so,
IT will go as soon as you stop looking.
IT will stop being once you forget.
IT will wonder these things till IT can't anymore.

dreams always end awake

drifting off ever so slightly deeper and deeper
washed away identity, came out free.
changed things in a way I can't remember.

Best quess out of 100

It will ask you why you walked away.
And you'll say something to spare the truth, and it's feelings.
Thank you sssssooooooo much.
Without you it still breaths, but more labored.
I hope this was not in vain,
but don't we all.
Grusome task this becomes,
untangling what we've become intangled.
Once the hacking starts,
the blood will not stop,
until it's gone, along with memory.

F R O M T H I S A N G L E

words

word
world
wonder
wander
wow
mom
moment
monumental
monstrosity
the sum of all = infinity
the sum of none = infinity
we are all
michael jackson
it's in the mind......if you still have one........I pray you lost it.

Hit it with a hammer

Fade out, you. you mysterious phantom, fade out.
Slither up the mountain to reclaim your kingdom.
your broken people wait, in anticipation.
Film, clear surrounds this moment.
It is present, fully.
Sped out through the jungle to get a message.
After it was received, we all fell off of our precious high tower,
Never to be heard from again..........but i knew from the beginning.

Movement

Tomorrow I will be born,
falling from the sky faster than a speeding bullet.
unaware.
propelled by a force greater than the some of the imaginations.
innocent.
in one direction........down,
tainted.
until in a split second,
confused.
nay less than a split second,
hopeful.
this birth will end.
indifferent.
when down becomes irrelevant,
tomorrow I will be born..............

Tragic Flight

Sept. 4, 1961. Chicago Airport. My plane leaves at 2:20pm. My life ends today........Yes, that's right Herb Albert.......No...but I do get that all the time. My flight will land in Madrid, Spain in aprox. 10 hours. God I miss them already, if they only knew.....it's better this way, better that they don't know. Her voice is getting more distant now not as loud as it used to be. Still, I don't think I'll ever be well again. Don't listen to people that say, "At least I have my health", that's not the half of it. Tomorrow I'll try to forget about Dan Sawyer, his wife, his kids, his mistakes......I love airports, there's something about them, the people different races, cultures, creeds........priests, monks, thieves.........murders, all coming to this place...crazy! Got 20 min till my plane leaves, finish my Jack on the rocks, quick bathroom break, and I'm sitting in coach. Excuse me miss could I get a Jack and Coke.........Thanks. Bottoms up, to the loneliest flight of my life.

Sea weed

Nobody's hurting.
Everyone's to busy, and stoned.
The insect licked it's lips on the last drop of our blood.
Running, running trying to catch up.
Where did it go?
Am I bleeding?
I didn't feel a thing.
Almost there,
and if I was why would I go on?
Dark night is familiar.
It brings no dreams.
It hunts.
Day after day,
it patiently waits.
To swallow it's prey in the abyss of never ending sleep.

Crack in the window

Changed the sheets and wiped down the bathroom. Make sure no ones the wiser. Tell my wife and kids I love them dearly and I'm off. This drive north is long, bearable if it's just yourself taking the trip. Stopped for gas in a small town next to a lake. The smell of the water reminds me when times were simpler, when life was.......I hear her voice again. I tell myself it's the wind, but I know it's her. This coffee taste like shit. I chuckle, it's what a bastard like me deserves, burnt coffee. After taking a pebble out of my shoe, I'm back on the road, windows down, and a pit in my stomach. Wonder if it's the coffee? I doubt it.

self annihilation

uncomfortable arrangement, this world.
stop breathing.
lose your mind.
vomit.
slit your throat.
forget.....what.....you get-for nothing.
slip beyond the seen.
dwell between borders.
the walls speak, as do the closets.
i fear you, adam
i crumble in sadness for you eve.
my family is dead.
i am all there is,
i am dying.

How would I know?

I came down the stairs with no light other than that of the moon, stars and other celestial bodies pouring through my window, telling me where to go and where to put my minds eye. At the bottom of the winding staircase I saw a shape in the shadows, as the wind from the open window fondled every piece of fabric, every hair on my arm and neck, comforting me before the tragedy struck. She was there.......waiting.

Thank you for your patience

Your call is very important to us, we are currently assisting other customers but if you will continue to hold one of our relationship managers will be with you momentarily. Once the child. Once innocent. Once free. Once the victim. Once the loved. Once the lover. Once the son. Once the daughter. Once. Once became past, and pure became impure. Ignorance was forgiven, wisdom now condemns. How things change for the worse. Tonight's air is heavy.
-the cynic

send a message that sequences your smiles to the rain

Squeeze a sneeze, for once it came without coersion. Figure dressed in yesterday told me that today would drift off coarse and return one day with an outlook that could save the world. It's about 8 o'clock somewhere and 6 here, and still no sign of a hopefull recovery. Bouncing off the walls, building a city with whimpers and tears. Vicious bicycles ride around town untill the moon comes to drive them away. Steer clear of this ice burge, language limps and stutters along with my lips. But I'm still waiting for you, waiting for the devotion that will crumble this shell. Change the print, put it in symbols that will outlast me and you and our nonexsistence. I had it. I lost it. It found me again, and I ran.

who are you?

who are you? what are you hearing? not audiably, but inaudiably. That's right, in your plastic mind of yours. The one created by us. why are you so consumed with questions? What answer will satisfy? Is that not what your after? An answer? Maybe it's not everything. Maybe your questions have a different purpose. An outlet for frustration, frustration from reality just outside your grasp. You can see it....you think (if you really think?), but you can't control it, you can't will it in one direction or another. And even if you could, will it, this way or that, you would be unsatified. Why? because you are incomplete. How? In what way? How do you know? what is complete? we can only compare our persieved reality to our fictional reality, and even then things get lost in translation. What are we doing then? Breathing. Thinking. Rightly. Wrongly. Our world is of our own creation, we fuckeding it up. Alone. Blank. Can I just live? That's it just be? But what does "being" imply? What is required of meyouthem? If it all doesn't matter why try? If it does, why? but see there you are back to your questions again, scaredy cat.

south of sound

tresspass carefully. this one will leave you numb, after it tells you the secrets of the gorillaz. Some bouncing minutes scanning the perrifial purified water. sneezes remind you of your dreams because the whole world is cencored. It's blinded, or should I say WE are blinded. Sorry about that the light gets mitty bright in the summer, oh yeah but me never felt so good, in south of the border. keep it up keep it up on the table. drop stop down this one time till you will soon be gone so many million suns die. when hahaa this circus show is so unbearable, chase the staircase down the ladder as your world goes blue no periods in this piece please, spelling errors plentifull in this place woops don't trip over the rhythms. This is crazly ya know step to the rainy outside and let it whisper tomorrows fear. hark fair gentleman doth thou know knowest thy end? Nay sir. then it shall be written in the book, your end started now and ended now to start again in the end . that is the way we are transpiring in a crucial way down get down get dowl boo boo I'll give you a thought. shhhh shhhh be quiet the end is here.

see through the tamed thought to the other side

summer, I remember. that crisp night's shiver. slam can the man tell him to jump off your long walk trying to forget where it all went. trainging for all eternity to weather this lonliness, spin backwards back to when you ran faster than the sun. must pick up this conversation after I get off this train, this merry go's faster then my delight at the thought of a moonbeam being caught especially by this run away sentence. toot toot toot.

ol' drippy beats with seats that sit peeps

high note not nice sit down it your seat. You've been naughty hurting ears with your harendise ringing. I've heard it all before but now I can't hear anything. thank you dear deafing frequency. you've cured my dispise with idle eyes. Replaced it with eyes that hoped to confure with it's partner ear.....what I can't........nevermind you just look before you say........nothing goes it and stays it doesn't until it's time have come round back and givin the time synced rainbow. nuthin but you're imagination feble human contact gives death. breathe till you drown. inwards leads to blank slate clean away from things that seem important. cuz what's life without anyone to anknowledge your aLIfE. stand backwards knowing you can do no better.

can't stop thinkin about tomorrow, and today still sucks

come one come all your all invited to a special dining event hosted for all who know nothing or at least somthing about nothing (god knows it's hard enough to find someone like that around this blue sphere). step out two inches to the right of the left and twenty inches right of your sense of identity. ok there right there........stop look around........what do you see? do you see a crazy wooden, square, yellow and brown space floating in the breeze with a grin that would send a sinfull snere through the priest's mind? yeah I know. That's forty-seven inches from where your suposed to be at least if you want to get a good view of the right side of yesterday. Don't worry that's why I'm here to send you on a more constructive rought. NOw go to yes and tell it to move up and down to the rhythm of the night. Oh yeah the rhythm of the night. corona is the best on a lite stomache.

can I really be serious about none

I'm am and I will, as soon as you leave and with that drum slid under your coat. yeah I saw it and it's staying here you thieving derilect! redirect this phrase to be something more happy somthing more along the lines of, relaxationa and no responsiblity, hmmmm seems nice if only it weren't so out of sync with reality. stand on the white lines of the road and click your heels three times saying a "hail mary". Full of grace if I weren't so full of space and emptieness, but it gets my clothes dry and that's all that matters in this crazy fucked up world. I thought about what it was to BE, but then I got sidetracked and thought about what it would be like to not BE. and then I went to the fridge to get an ice cream treat, but I'm still here.......me and all the vagueness of glory and wonder, left to ponder sound.

I'm almost down to my last bottom

cleave and then leave. without a care and my worry I lost in the last city. twas a pitty, i was lookin for a spare coin and then out came my worry, fell to the ground and got carried away by the wind. Off to a nother town where someone will find it, admire and then move on because he's got stuff to buy. But what do I care, I only see two feet in front of me. but it's done me not much good in this short stint as a middle ageing lout, wondering where the fuck has my life gone? didn't I just set it down over there, so I could go get some green leaves? then by the time I thought about coming back it was already decomposing and sinking into the earth without a care, and definatlly without a sense of ownership of itself. what do I have but thinking about what I have or don't? kroeppppppsee lsieli prerej lkjdo la;op;we a;kjdol ekjlaefh alkjke jhwoeiehkcnjg lkjfwoiw me be tired and going nowhere don't stare or your eyese willl glare till you taste earth.

trick or treat you tell me witch one is ready

can do or will do what we tend to do is bless you and your whole crew b 4 we shew you out the door and tell ye to be getting on with your bad self. i was there wonce i told all of them to get the hell off my back and go make some poor lady rich. 123 can do no more especially after this jack stack cratters after craters. cracks into a million pieces and wishes life stayed a bit longer. please don't feel bad for this backwards beat that came to your house when you were out galivanting around town thinkin you were a good soldier but what you didn't know is that some days bring a darker rain then most men have dared to see especially with thier eyes open, im hope "N" that this day, this dark day, this last day, will end peacefully wtih out much striff. word up and peace out to my peoples who don't even know me but claim to, and claim to process this dreadful weariy life. I'll be sure to stay up and recognize what's going on and try to do somthing about the river that seems helpless enough, but still day after day, won't shut up. o well I got the lord and his mercy what else to I need but a good kick in the chin, pass the gin please and thank you. this nights spinnin up round, and round till all you hear is spekles in the night. carfully tearing at your brain again, like winters eve. peace will come when everyone is dead.

crisen me five flavored

Sent a letter, got a paper cut. Gave blood and got shot. who done it? mr. mustard got me. we squared off straight away i didn't wait for him to draw first. fist came to blows and one of us was left standing, a little off balance I might add but if I did it was cuz the coffee pot feel a little to close to my bruised face. frequency's pummeling little fragile stars, while I sit and wonder where have all the cowboys gone? At least we have our leader. can't get better, as we eat to death, swimming in batter, loving every minute of it. mmmmmmmmmmm tasty snack out of my backpack got squished when i fell out into this shit hole. pass me that sticky icky, to ease the ichie ivy, stylus freeze camera. can't get a peddistal to stand keeps fallin over red rover we call god over, oh i forgot where he wasisamiok2bfrozen.

sometimes a bird can be wonderful

when did I ask you for that enless summer night? Oh well what else am I supossed to do? clense th e tent mate. but don't forget to send someone special a card. days like this make me think that I'm the one that should be sent to the playground. I know totally dude...for real!? ? ? EREWD IIJJHNM:LKKJUGGG::lkjf this takse work smetha awalt telkem teeeeee ------heiiiisssiie;lkj soooeeeeethhh;;;lkjjjjjjill;lkj-9euhiw- j;;f9f4jk5y7i9uh32lkjjjjjjj9ddddfj43t seeeee yall tater me hands is soft;;;;;

leave it on the chimney with the dimwitted mother

squash nights peace with your frightening words. Another wingtipped psydonym smashed your face on a meat can, and still you nark. Tattling never got the truth to stop lying, so taste this dish. How old are you? How do you know? i compare trees growing, drinking water from a sprinkler, explaining to the tree it needs us, so look pretty, damn it! OR we can easily get one that will. Spaced out monkeyman never got a shot, not a chance in the world to put things right. Eat and shit till you die, and don't worry someone will take your place when you need to be gettin on. stale air.

these intricate silences

listen do you here, or there? I swear I heard it with my left eye and swivled round only to discover it was you who lied naked. Wanting me to speak or bark your name to the moon. Four UUUU to feel aLIVE, or at least concious, but what (was it concious)? I ran to the next idea where they told me to remain seated till my flight came to a complete stop listening!!!!!! How many times must we work and strive to die slower than that man over there, the one without a single day that he was proud of. Take threee steps back and one hop, skip and jump till you fall off your rocker, so amazed to stare blindly and somehow see clearer than you heard YOUR name, vapor

some say green is the loneliest color

hey all you bleeders. check out to get to the first one fast fast fast. Don't forget that last one. some little tip to get you to the otherside....mmmmm..........yes, JUMP! Stop, stomp the ground till it says uncle. Can you tell me the last time I went to the eastside? tree, tree, tree, years b 4 we swam at light speed, bend it. BoOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMM, it's Holloween, I'm scared cuz I saw the end, it was colored in a swarm of earths, sinking fast into the ether. If there was one, which there was on(c)e. I forgot it or maybe I never knew it 2 b gin with. Thisssssss stinks of the oily mess, nothin but hot air here. Breathe it in, it'll make you like a hot air balloon............HIGHer than six 777777's! mmmmmoooooooobbbbbbb's commin to take your women and children, to take your only son and money. Don't call me sunny, on a cloudy day, my girl. Next step this fall is to get up and go, why taken so slow? This is the intro to me wildly confusin, crusin through space in time, oh look how I rhythm, don't got a dime to me name, ain't no game every blog is the same, pushin some dame, man this rhythm is lame, what the $#$% am I sayin don't know, i gotta go see santa ho ho

Hello humans

Hey this is my cyborg acranime.....cooool! Getting a little vaction time of work today through Fri.....sweet! I'm seeing Imogen Heap on Thurs. in Chicago I'm so pumped! For those of you who don't know who Imogen Heap is, she is vocalist from Frou Frou (say it how you will), the artist who produced one of the best songs of the millinium, "Let go". Anyway I'll try to take lots of pictures so you all are really jelous:) Did anyone get the new gameboy micro? If you did tell me. I've been lusting and wondering if its worth the money......problly not but it looks so sexy! Other than that....oh I'm not going to have a car for awhile starting next week. I'll be riding a bike, so if any of you would like to see me, move closer to where I live and I can ride my bike to your house. Enough rambling, peace


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What?

Hey all you people with nothing better to do then read my stinkin blog. Do you all remember national talk like a pirate day? NO? Awe ye missed out. New season of Smallville starts next Thurs. don't miss it! I'm going to be visiting my pal Sara D. in Chicago and seeing the great Ms. Imogen Heap LIVE!!!! Killer!!!! Yeah she's awesome. And to keep you up to date on some known music and some not known music. "Jackson and His Computer Band" that's the artist. Album "Smash" very good!!! Heavy electronic dig it! "Sigur Ros" artist. Album "Takk" Play at maximum volume for best results. Fiona Apple's three year in the making album, Extrodinary Machine is coming out soon. Buy it and support this sweet angel. I've already had it for the last year, thanx to peer to peer file sharing, but I will buy it anyway to support my future wife:) (Fiona if you happen to be reading this I'm not some weird cre........well I'm not like in love wi..............................if you ever want to hang out you should e-mail me) Well that's about it for this lame entry, but make sure to check out Dailysonic.com for that narly podcast. Sick?

Great Podcast called DailySonic

Hey check out this podcast, lots of good music and random information. Things are well in Mikeland. At the moment it's Sun. morning and I"m eating some delicious granola....hemp granola! Can you believe it! What will they think of next. Whose sick of hearing about the hurricane raise your hands, yes I see those hands and I pray for you :) I know this was a terrible tragidy but frankly I'm tired of hearing about. But I guess it's good in someways, we'll be sure not to forget to easily, which is good. I think thats my problem, I want to forget about unpleasant things.......ah this is all rubbish.....I was going to erase it but I promised myself I wouldn't erase anything........I have absolutely nothing interesting in my life that's why I haven't written here in awhile. Still working on my album, I'm in the learning the software stage, so it'll be awhile but I'm determined. More determined than I've been for anything in my life. I was thinking about dying the other day, and the only thing that I will really miss in life is listening to music. I really hope I become a vibration or at least will be allowed to cross the spaces of time and attend some Led Zepplin or Bjork concerts. So be kind to your ears everyone and if you don't care about your ears be kind to mine, how do you do that you ask? Don't answer when they ask you, if you think they look fat in this hat. I want to thank the people who take time to try and decipher what the hell I'm writing, sorry it sucks I went to a Christian private school and that is why my education is so poor. That's all here. War?

This way to the Meatrix

Take head!!!!

Hey

Man it's been quite awhile I've probly lost the two or three people that used to read this blog. I haven't had internet in awhile that is why I've been away. Hey did anyone see Kanye West on tv, blasting the president? I thought it was awesome so poetic on many levels. Life is humming away. I will try to post more consistently. Peace

Electronic Music

Here is a great site to learn all the different styles of electronic music and some of it's history. just clik on the huge Ishkurs guide to electronic music 2.5 pic.

Check out my friends blog

This is my friend Dean's blog, interesting stuff to think about. Had our Enochs Path gathering tonight, very excited to start this machine up again. Party in Ionia at Chad and Melody's, Fri. at 7:00 come one come all. BYOB;) Radiohead is in the studio working on a new album, yyyyyeeeesssssss, here is a cool blog directly from the band keeping us all updated on the latest developments www.radiohead.com/deadairspace/ Life is humming along at the moment but I feel some impending tragedy, or something disorrenting on the horizon, I don't know what it is but while life seems to be going quite nicely I feel sort of guilty for it going so well and anticipate some drama to call me back to reality. Alergies are crazy right now I just need a bucket that atatches to my face for my nose to drip into. (any inventors out there) I'm currently loving electronic music, I have been since the late ninties, but the last year has really offered up some sweet beats. night time peace.

new sounds

check out MF Doom aka Viktor Vaughan. His rhythms are dope son! Diggin the new Gorillaz "Demon Days". other than music life is pretty ordinary and bland. I've started working on my album, look for it in 2006! Peace

I'm famous!!!!!

Hey just to let everyone know I'm famous now. I was on the verge before but now it is totally for sure. Why you ask? Because I appear in the Mates of State DVD. Yes the anonyingly cute, husband and wife indie duo, has released thier DVD and me and my friend Jason appear in one of the shots looking really cool!!! So pick up the DVD and see for your self or I have a copy and would gladly lend it to anyone who doubts, the fact, that I'm really well known now. I apologize if I can't be seen with a lot of you who read this blog, simply because I don't want to tarnish my reputation with any "unsavory" characters. I'm having a party on Fri. at Beaners in Grand Ledge where you may all kiss my feet and look at me in awe and wonder. I would thank you for reading this blog but I know you have nothing better to do and my ego simply won't allow it. Peace

yo yo what the dilly bitches

Hey I'm at a coffee shop right now with me new roomates, having a grand ol time. Couple new updates for anyone who is interested, our "church" group is going to be a mars hill "arm" in the Lansing community. This is sweet news and I'm very pumped about it. Also for anyone who is interested in things theological, we'll be starting our theology at the pub shortly. Hope things are well with people. My veggy diet is going good so far, except for the two chocolate bars I bought the other day I'm eating very healthy, in case you care, and yes I realize this is a runon sentence, and yes I realize I didn't hyponate runon or spell hyphonate right but I've had a few drinks and care very little. Peace brothers and sisters.

Rahzel was wicked!!!!!!

Hey sorry I haven't posted in a while I don't have internet quite yet cuz I'm in the middle of moving. Rahzel was friggin, off it, he is got a one man hip hop group in his mouth. He is on bjorks new album doing beats with his mouth. Crazy! Other than that I should be moving in with me friends this week. On a strict veggy diet again. I was getting quite puggy. We'll see how this diet works out. OH and no milk too? Cut my coffee down to one cup a day. It's really bruttal! thats it

Rahzel

Gearing up to move...new stupid church people..etc

Hey all of america that reads my blog, like all the time. New CD's to check out that I am diggin, Royksopp- "the understanding", Deep Dish- "George is on", Jamariquai- "Dynamite" (funkin sweet). I'm starting to pack up to move out of my apt.....sniff sniff, tear. There is a couple new stupid church people podcast so check them out stupid church people.com. Other than that I'm done with the hot weather thank you, come winter I'm ready. Chad did you get your ibook yet? the prices just dropped so your in like flint. I rented two sean connery james bond films, "thunderball" and "never say never...something" anyway they were both the exact same plot (terroists hijack nuclear bombs), and the same setting (health club), same sinarios (getting assaulted at the health club, making sweet love at the health club etc.) same shots (grabing fruit out of a bowl), it was really stupid. I love 007 but come on man, and they're so funkin long too! That's it for this installment peace

Life is cool

Uh I don't really have anything intelligent to say, but I wanted to at least write something, as not to disappoint my milllions of avid readers. So here is my insiteful comment for the weak(week) get stronger, you'll live longer, blah blah man I got nuthin. Saw charles and the chocolate factory yesterday I was very hungry when it was through. thats it. Peace

My bro and sises

Great book about the theology of Evolution!!!!!

I'm reading this facinating book right now and it is perty sweet. So check it out especially all you up tight fundys. I was just reading some of my previous posts and my god, I can not punktuate, or spell to save my life. But like I said in a previous post it is simply because I am too postmodern for the rest of the world:) Nothing really interesting going on in my life at the moment other that my wine and cheese party goin on this evening. I've latley been kinda gearing up to move out. On that note let it be known that I hate moving. It is such a hassle. I move on average every 6 months and the one thing I appreciate is that every time I move I lose approx one tenth of all my stuff, either cuz I don't want to move the damn thing, or I just forget, or throw it away on accident. I look at it like my tithe:) Oh and in older news I don't think that I mentioned that I got a Sony PSP. (Chad I bet your ssssssoooooo jealous :) ) It is the best purchase of my life better than food. I mean even the Bible says you shouldn't live on bread alone.............and when you can't afford bread, because you bought a sweet ass PSP, somehow the pulsing electronic soundtrack of Ridge Racer is louder than the growls of your bellly. Oh and sorry for all of the obscenities and misspelled words.

Cheese Fricken Party!

Como suple Vuh, all you french bitches! I'm having a wine and cheese party on sun. at 5pm and everyone is invited. It is to be a simply marvalous event, hosted my myself and my good friend Sara D. Good times are guaranteed by all......and if you notice your not having a good time then you can drink more:) Anyway other than that, my new anouncements thus far are that I'm going to be moving in with a couple swell friends of mine until I can find a house to purchase. Looking for something under $100,000 close to US127, any suggestions let me know. Went to my dad's bible study the other night and got ridiculed for not believing we're going to heaven when we die. That was interesting, especially when one of the guys read the verse in I think I Timothy about not believing in strange teachings. And then I brought up the fact that he was twisting the Bible around and back in forth it went. But it might have done some good, afterwards one of the guys that wasn't talking at all comented on how this was the first nonconforming bible study they've had. I'm such a heathen:) O well, sorry for being honest and asking questions. Peace

Hello again

Hey another exciting, heart racing entry. First some random stuff.....the new Sony PSP is super cool if you have one you are very blessed (yes I'm still obsessing over it), then......I'm really in a bind in my mind....ooo that's good (ya'll can use that rhythm) in regards to whether or not I should go to college, or just take a bunch of classes in areas that I want to study, mainly theology type stuff. I've been thinking about degrees within the ministry. I just can't justify getting into debt thousands of dollars just to feel "equipted" to do ministry. (and by the way I misspell stuff on purpose, that's how postmodern I am, if you don't like it then YOU use spell check.....damn it!) Why can't I be a "minister" and be respected as a person without the $40,000 piece of paper? Thats all for now cuz I'm getting kicked out of the coffee shop. Peace in my heart, please God

Another exciting post

Hey one and all and welcome to another riveting blog entry by me. News today is that I decided to stay in Lansing and go to school rather than Grand Rapids.....reason? Because it is so much cheaper for one and for two I got an offer from my employer I coulnd't refuse. I'm still interested in the "ministry", but the question is to what capacity. I've been thinking a lot lately about the whole "religious system" (here it is in quite a long digression; Graduate high school, dick around for awhile "feel" "God's call", go to collage, get into massive amounts of debt, go to seminary, get into more massive amount of debt, graduate, get "employeed" by a "church", and spend the rest of your life providing religious goods and services to the masses of "consumer Christianity") and how that compares with just "being" the church in everyday life. Caring for the poor, helping your neighbors, gathering with friends to discuss theology over beer, and mucho other stuff is what I think I would like to do. Now how to go about it is the other question. I realize there is space within the contemporary church structure for "pastors", "priest's" etc. to change things but I don't think I'm domesicated enough to be one of those people, God bless'em. Anyway that's whats on me mind. If the one person reading this has any advice I would gladly accept. If there is no one reading this then, God please e-mail me your thoughts on this subject. Well until next time, "kick the tires and light the fires"

stupid church people

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God is real!!!! In case you didn't know and want to take my word for it.

I've got a pretty funny story that I have to share with you all. This past weekend I was up north on our lake in a little town called Lewiston. It was night and we were having a bonfire in front of the lake. My family decided to call it a night and go inside for bed, while I decided to stay out and enjoy the beautiful night. I'm sitting in the chair admiring the black sky and lake, looking up at the stars and finally say to my self, "self you should lay on the ground so you can get a better view of those awesome stars". I thought this was a pretty good idea, so I lay on the ground and I"m having this really spiritual moment looking up at the stars watching a comet, and just talking to "god". Then I get frustrated and tell "god" that I wish I knew if "he" was for real or what like how am I supposed to just believe "he's" out there and "he" loves me blah blah blah.....so I say "god" if your real you have to show me I mean give me a sign, show me something really cool, show me the stars all lining up saying "HELLO MIKE" or something. And then all of a sudden I feel this wierd tingling in my pants, first on my legs and then around the "holy of holy's" and then instead of tingling I feel itching and slight pain, and it becomes apparent to me that my pants are filled with ants. So I go inside and inspect the situation and sure enough ants have filled my pants. At that moment I felt really close to God, He is really has got a sense of humour. I doubt God all the time, but it's times like this that "knowing" He's around, isn't as important as our interaction together. I told God that He got me good and went to bed smiling myself to sleep:)

Happy Independence Day

Had a lovely two day weekend up north with my parents and sister. The 3rd was absolutely beautiful, a perfect day. Other than that life continues this week as usual. Well thats about it. I don't really have anything else to say but wanted to post something so you don't think I forgot about this thing. Peace

dreams/reality; Case in point

Ok weird thing. Last night I had a dream of this girl, Kristin, that I went to England with last year. I dreamt that I went over to her house and talked with her and her parents. Today I took my lunch break early for no reason and went to the book store. While I was reading a book I hear someone say, "Mike", "hey Mike". And who is it, but Kristin's mom! Very weird. This type of shit happens all the time, and it has no meaning other than coinsidence I quess. Anyway my sis graduated from Douglas J Salon today and I'm very proud of her. I'm on my way out the door right now so peace party people!!!!!!

between faith and fantasy

Where am I? Who am I? this is the question that has been on my mind the last couple mornings, in those waking minutes between dreams and whatever this is. It seems to me that I have been so bent on making my faith logical or proving to myself why I believe what I believe, that I have forgotten how little is truely logical. I've been reading the bible and really getting caught up in the stories of our great God and the people he loves, and what a whore the people he loves are.....none the less he loves anyway. These stories seem real to me, just as my life seems real to me but I have such a loose hold on it all. Imagination and fantasy are harder than you thing to seperate from reality. I find freedom here in loosing my fake control on my world and leaving it up to my dreams.....to God's dreams.

Apple's new iProduct

This is halarious!!!!!1

Great podcast!

This is pretty cool! Makes me want to go out and buy a PSP. If anyone reading this would like to buy me one I would be forever indebted:) http://catholicinsider.com/scripts/praystation.php

What a weekend!

This weekend was amazing. I meet with my friend from Toronto, Christina and Dean L. at the Irish Pub. Enjoyed some very good theology over ale:) After that I went to the last party at the Seymour house, so sad. There I drank too much and meet some very cool people. This couple I met were especially cool. We talked about spirituality and I explained my constantly evolving view of Christ. They seemed to really enjoy this alternative perspective of the "christianity" they had heard before. They were such an encouragement to me because they were interested in spiritual things, which is something you don't see much anymore. Most people are interested either, in opposing anything religious or spiritual, or being simply religious and fake. I find myself sometimes swinging between these extremes, God help me. But anyway all in all it was a tremendous weekend, besides trying to recover from a night of heavy drinking:) Peace people

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Listening to Sufjen Stevens new album it is truly beautiful. I've been listening to N.T. Wright all day at work, my brain is smushed with things to ponder. No matter how many times I listen to his lectures I get something new out of them. Met with my parents missionary friend from Niger yesterday. Boy did he have some interesting stories. There culture is so different over there. Apparently from what he was saying, the mission organization struggles to find trustworthy people to work within the organization because in their culture if there is some money sitting around and they have a relative that is sick and in need of medical services they will just take the money to pay for it, even though the money does not belong to them. The mission organization sees this as immoral, but I've been thinking that since morals vary from culture to culture, how right is our "western-Christian" morals? Are they superior to morals in a Muslim nation? Or a Hindu nation? Etc. I think the problem that arises in poorer nations is possibly their lack of understanding/respect when it comes to ownership. But is ownership Biblical? Aren't we taught to share liberally? ie. if someone asks for the coat off your back give them your shirt as well etc. What did Jesus own? What did the apostles own? I realize that we live in different cultures but think about the underlying ideology off property and ownership. It's me trusting in my possessions, looking to what I have as some form of identity. I am in no way justifying stealing but if Christ's Kingdom principles were implemented we would have no reason to "steal" and if someone did "steal" from us it would make little or no difference, because if they needed it we would give it anyway. In the Nigerian culture if someone needs a tool, money, food, etc. he'll ask you for it and your obligated to give it. The missionary described them as not seeing longterm solutions to problems, but only immediate ones (ie. the example above with the money). He said this is why it is hard for the culture to "get ahead", because commerce in our western culture requires "ownership", "property" etc. Without these "getting ahead" financially is impossible, but is that so bad?

My cool sister

Coffee with Lu

Always great to see Lu. She is one of my dearest friends......lovely...yes lovely.:)

My lovely friend lu

Walter Brueggemann Speech!!!!!!

Walter is the man!

Finished Moving!!! Thank Jesus!

I just finished moving my mom and her four kids into their new apt. Thanx to my friend Josh we blew all the stuff out of the Uhaul in like 2 hours. Other than that I'm just gearing up to move to Grand Rapids and start school at Calvin College in Aug. Debating between pschology and religious studies. I'm going to try and visit with my friend Dean and Lydia in G.R. tomorrow (my spelling rules:)) I downloaded some new Imogen Heap last week and it is sweet sweet ear candy:) Has anybody checked out Bjorks new project yet? It's sooooo beautifully scary. I still wonder if anyone is reading this shit:) TTFN

Bjork's new project

Check out Bjork's new project. http://unit.bjork.com/specials/dr9/
Super stoked!!!!!

Yes lord ?

The greatest chorus ever

I've decided the greatest chorus yet is "I'm Shakin" by Rooney. Let me just sing a bar for all of you....."I'm sha sha shakin sha shakin, I'm sha sha shakin sha shakin I'm sha sha shakin I'm shakin"..........Genius. Other than that random thought, I was thinking about the critics of Emergent, and I've decided that I think critics should be welcomed, and I'll tell you why. Most people I talk to about Emergent, don't know what the hell I'm talking about (Most of these people are conservative evengelicals mind you). So I think any critiques about Emergent within the "church" circles, even if it's percieved as "bad", is a good thing. Good because it lets people within these churches who may be wrestling with questions about theology, "doing church", etc. know that their not alone. I would like to thank my dad and Brian for a very stimulating exchange of theological ideas the other night. I'm going to be moving up to Grand Rapids in August to go to school at Calvin College. I'll be studying either pre-seminary, or pschology. I'm very excited especially to live with my friend and mentor Dean L. That does it for today. Peace

First post!!!!!!!!

This is my first venture into the "blogging" world. I see this as an exercise in futility because I probably won't continue to write on this time devouring medium. But hopefully with the couple people who might stumble across this monstrosity, I will be able to perpetuate my random nonsensical ideas. Peace in the big wide world.